new
old
profile
notes
email
diva
host
I am scared May 25, 2004 @ 3:54 p.m.
Today was a verry wierd day.
Nothing really happend until lunch and then shit got wierd...Kelly asked me for money and of course I said no...that way he would insist on searching me ::HeHe:: and then Annie went to the bathroom and I signed her yearbook...I wish I had said more but I didn't want to write, oh well...I'll write her a letter to put in the yearbook. Then we went to see Mr. Chaney (our favorite teacher) and he wasn't there, he is ALWAYS there! Then Annie saw one of her friends that apperently is a friend of Ricky's...so there I was seeing him flirt with all these people (girls & guys) and I just felt totally left out but that is normal I never really am in the group when it is Annie's friends, unless it is Nate & Kelly...but anyway...I knew if I didn't ask now I would never get Ricky to sign my yearbook so I asked and he did! I swear to GOD I almost passed out! I was shaking like crazy and I swear I almost had a minor heart-attack! It was great! Not the minor heart-attact...the fact that I actually spoke to Ricky! This is a step in the right direction! I will try to talk to him next year too. I know it will be hard but what have I got to lose!
Okay here is the really wierd part...Annie called me after school today and I guess she is really depressed and she is thinking of commiting suicide. She is really under wieght and depressed. I know she would never actually kill herself but I am so scared for her. She doesn't want to do anything to help herself and she says she just wants to wait and see what happens. I can't do anything and it is driving me crazy! I want to help her! I am her bestfriend! I love her and I don't want to see her like this! I am supposed to be the depressed suicidel one not her! What should I do? I guess I'll just be there for her and hope for the best...