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Old Matt, New Matt, One Matt, Screw Matt Sunday, Aug. 28, 2005 @ 8:53 pm
I haven't updated in so long...
I met matt on monday (last week) he is more ghetto than ever. it depresses me. I still love the idea of him, but not him. I now understand the song by tegan and sara...walking with a ghost. i am walking with a ghost. he no longer exists. i miss the matt that i once knew. the one who isnt infused with ghetto dirt. im so much different and he hasnt changed just grown...like a fucking tumor. so i guess i just miss the idea of being inlove. i am so ready for love. i want to fall for someone else now. but i want them to love me back. i want a relationship. i miss my old life. i want to be young again. no worries. i want to feel confidant. i wish i belived in myself. i want love.