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Hurt Pain Life pt 2 Sunday, Mar. 06, 2005 @ 10:15 am
So I've been thinking more about this situation with Mikey. I guess what bothers me the most is that I thought maybe we really could be something. Something more than friends. I thought maybe he liked me too. I know we are good friends and that's cool but I want something more. Is that so much to ask? Am I even deserving? ::Sigh:: aparently it is to much to ask now. Now that he has found someone better than me. Someone who he apparently is really happy with. Could we have been happy together? Maybe...maybe I should just let fate step in. I am scared that if I do that, I will be with Matt when he gets back. I don't really want that. I want a rocker not a wannabe thug. I love him but not that way anymore. I also want someone who is happy most of the time. Someone who can write with me. Someone musical who will teach me how to play the guitar. Not Matt, just not Matt...